ERNIE AND ERNESTINA: Searching
Book Two, Chapter 285: The Serenity Prayer
What happened to Joshua on the interstate and on the film shoot, and my re-call of that long-ago trip to Florida, serves as a wake-up call for me, too — such a strong wake-up call that I can’t sleep.
I think again of the Serenity Prayer, repeat it to myself. Higher Power, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.
All of a sudden, I get its meaning. I feel it in my gut.
I can’t change the past or who I was in the past or what I did in the past. That’s Acceptance, which will bring me peace.
I can change who I am now. That’s where Courage lies — facing who I am in my entirety and beginning to change the unhealthy aspects of how I think and act.
Wisdom comes with knowing what I can change and what I cannot. The situation is the situation, but I’m changing how I respond to any person, place, or thing.
If Joshua had told the director what he would now, the director may not have killed the turkey — or he may have — but whatever the director’s response, Joshua would have been in harmony with himself. This is what I’m learning — to own my thoughts and my feelings, to express them appropriately, and to act on them when it’s my next good step, all the while practicing compassion and understanding for myself and for others.
Yes, it’s hard work. And it’s absolutely necessary work if I am to be the person I want to be.