ERNIE AND ERNESTINA: Searching
Book Two, Chapter 32: Emptiness
I awaken.
It seems the middle of the night, but when I check your watch — it’s two a.m. — I realize I was asleep only an hour or so. I was dreaming, but my awakening chased away the dream.
I’m awake in an empty house. I’m empty inside, too, but for these words. I must fill myself with something else. The words are almost all out of me now.
It’s scary, this emptiness. But I realize it’s what I’ve lived with all my life yet didn’t know. You were my outside force. I must find an inside force, something from within that will move me forward.
What will it be? I have no idea. I just know that no one else can put it there. Only me.
That’s scary, too. Everything scares me.
I feel so empty.